Tuesday, October 23, 2007

I don't want to write fiction actually

What's wrong with writing something that isn't made up? It's still a book. It's still a big challenge to write 50k words of it.

I don't mean writing a book about Random Topic of Interest Which Requires Lots of Research, such as writing an instruction manual or a guidebook to Paris.

It might be something more lighthearted. Perhaps someone really wants to write a book about different cars they really like and why they like them and such. It wouldn't be fiction, but it's still a novel. Or a factual book about something fictional, like a book about your fantasy world or a roleplaying game you've created. Same goes for biographies/memoirs and any sort of book that deals with memories. If I want to write a book about my cat, it wouldn't be fiction (unless I started making stuff up, of course), so it wouldn't "count" for NaNo according to the attitude of people in the forums and the FAQ... but isn't the challenge to come up with a continous (not necessarily coherent) text of at least 50k words in a month's time? (Continuous might be the wrong word, but you know what I mean.)

A text of at least 50k words in 30 days = a book/novel/whatever = big challenge = what NaNoWriMo is about.

I've seen in the FAQ and other threads the saying "If you call it a novel, we call it a novel", which is great. So if I write a book that _I_ call a novel, but which isn't fiction, it'll still be a novel according to that saying. And then the whole thing doesn't make any sense:
"Here's a novel I wrote about my mother's childhood."
"It's not fiction."
"Perhaps not, but it's a novel if you ask me."

Not that it really matters, as such, as no one verifies the texts and say "this is not fiction!!" - so who would know anyway? And if you're writing it for your own sake, to prove that you DO have it in you to write a novel, all types of novels should be allowed, as long as you start from scratch. Why say "you can't write that" to people who have no interest in writing fiction but who want to participate in NaNo because it's a great writing challenge? I've never written 50k words in a month (at least not comprising of the same story), fictional or non-fictional. I care about how many words about the same kind of "topic" (storyline) I can come up with, as that's my challenge. I don't care about the storyline being fictional or real, as I will be just as happy and feel just as accomplished to reach 50k regardless of if it's fiction or not.

"YAY!!! I wrote a novel of 50k words about my mother's childhood! Woohoo, I made it!"
"It's not fiction."
"I don't care, I wrote a novel of 50k words in a month! I did it! Yay me! I can write books!"

If there's no one to verify the topic of the book, why actively discourage people from writing what they care about just because it's not made up, when the challenge of writing it is still the same?

Friday, October 19, 2007

Like a broken toy

Good idea: Taking tests online.

Bad idea: Taking tests online about personality disorders and the likes and reading up on them on Wikipedia and go "hmm, maybe".

Quite often, it feels as if I'm broken and the warranty has run out.

I mean, ffs. According to tests and Wikipedia, I show signs of Schizoid Personality Disorder. I'm just not a very social person! Schizoid sounds serious. Like... schizophrenia... and the voices tell me they're pretty sure I've not got that! ;)

Did a few Asperger's Syndrome tests the other day. On one of them, http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php gave me a 91 score out of 200. Is that good or bad? It shows some Aspie tendencies, but nothing severe... I think. I got 92 neuro-typical (non-Autism) points on the same quiz, so... I don't even know what that means. Some other sites suggested I show a few signs, but nothing to go to the doctors and say "analyze this!" about.

Today, I did some Adult ADD tests. One of them said if you answered 3 or 4 to 20+ questions, there's perhaps a slight cause for concern. I had 31 of those. Think my total score was 154 or something, but I don't know what that means. I guess I have a touch of Adult ADD or something?

On the other hand, it's said ADD and the likes are quite common in Indigo people, so I digress. Then again, I am not that keen on the Indigo labelling. I prefer to think of the Indigo phenomenon as the next step in evolution. Apparently there's a word for it, Homo noeticus. I don't think she uses that word, but she does make a compelling case for the same kind of thing - PMH Atwater in "Beyond the Indigo Children". One of the few Indigo books that doesn't put the people it writes about on a pedestal and go all "Hell Messiah!" about it.

It's fairly simple, really. There have been people showing signs of being psychic and/or intuitive all the time, but back in the day, they were persecuted and burned at the stakes as witches, for instance. It wasn't the right time for that gene in humans to prosper. Survival of the fittest - intuition wasn't fit enough. Nowadays, society has opened up a lot - and opened up a whole lot even in the puny 25 years I've been here (really, the last 10-15 years especially) - and it allows for the gene to pop its head up again and say hello. When it discovers it no longer risks getting killed off, it gets more prominent. Today, psychics can even be celebrities! It's the right time to show itself... and it means it now is fit for survival. It's quite an interesting thought if you ask me...

Days until NaNoWriMo: 13

Yes, I am going to have a shot at it again. The National Novel Writing Month, 1-30 November writing a book of 50k words. Only got to like 3400 last year for various reasons. Will try again. This time, I know the subject and it feels as if it's something I have to write. Not for the sake of writing or proving anything to myself, but rather, writing it for my sake. Writing about my life, from a child up until today, in detail. I've not had a particularly interesting life, really, but that's not the point. I won't be writing it as a giant ego trip. I will be writing it because writing is my primary form of expression, and because of that, it's the greatest therapy. I'm hoping that by writing about my life, I can come to terms with stuff that has happened, connect the dots, and work through shit which I've never quite been able to deal with. I had a big breakthrough writing about something from my past in an email just yesterday, when dots were connected and they seemed to lead back to the same incident. (Mum can probably guess what I'm talking about. Not that she reads my blog. But if she did, she'd know.)

In other news, we had the first frost yesterday morning. I took a picture, but I've not transferred it to the computer yet, and I don't know where I've put the camera. Can show it next time instead.

My Swedish animal communication / healing website http://www.djurhealing.se seems to be generating more traffic and interest than the UK website, http://www.reikipaws.co.uk ...and yes, the only reason I mentioned them right now was for SEO purposes. :look *pokes Google*

There's also a snooker championship going on at the moment, in Aberdeen, but no sign of Alan McManus so far. :( There's an appreciation society of his on Facebook. Yay! So to finish off this post, here's a clip of a post-match interview with him from 2005. Thank you and good night!

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Spinning Mindf*ck

spinning woman picture

Which way does she spin? Clockwise or counter-clockwise?

No, it's not a trick question. You'll see her spinning one way or the other and you won't be able to figure out how the HELL anyone can think she spins the other way.

Unless, of course, you see her change direction. I have looked at the actual animation frame-by-frame, and that doesn't give any "after a certain time, she spins the other way". No. Frame-by-frame, she spins clockwise. First time I looked at it, she was going counter-clockwise and I was thinking there's no way you could see her as spinning clockwise. Then, all of a sudden, she did. And when pointing this out over MSN, it changed again! And as I was writing it again, it changed mid-sentence!

I remember a few years ago, doing a test about which half of the brain you most use, I was quite close to the middle, with only a few % more to the left side. Maybe that's why. Either way you look at it, prepare to feel mindfucked!

Monday, October 08, 2007

Supporting my argument

Money should be abolished!

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Powerful Woman

A quick and easy pick-me-up. Sing along to this a couple o' times and you'll feel a lot more confident!

"Powerful Woman" by Moving Breath

I am a powerful woman, I am.
I am a powerful woman, I am.
I connect with myself and everything.
I am a powerful woman, I am.

I am a passionate woman, I am.
I am a passionate woman, I am.
I express myself with the power and love,
I am a passionate woman, I am.

I am a feeling woman, I am.
I am a feeling woman, I am.
I accept all the things expressing through me,
I am a feeling woman, I am.

I am a loving woman, I am.
I am a loving woman, I am.
I love myself and everyone,
I am a loving woman, I am.

I am divine woman, I am.
I am divine woman, I am.
The Goddess is fully awake in me,
I am divine woman, I am.

I am a powerful woman, I am.
I am a powerful woman, I am.
I connect with myself and everything,
I am a powerful woman, I am.
I am a powerful woman, I am.
I am a powerful woman, I am.